I miss them already

Rob is off on his first business trip since the peanut was born. Thankfully they don’t come around too often, because I’m remembering just how much I need my whole family together. This time he brought Chelsea down to stay with Grandma and Grandpa while he’s gone. If Chelsea was willing to poop in her own yard, we’d be fine – but I wasn’t sure about timing the walks with B’s schedule. So it’s just the two of us. And already I appreciate both Rob and Chelsea more than ever. It’s too quiet without hearing Chelsea’s dog tags rattle around, and knowing that Daddy won’t be home tonight makes the day feel like a book that’s missing it’s final happily-ever-after pages.

Rob did everything he could possibly think of to leave us totally set up for the next 5 days. Including peanut butter sandwich squares (Mommy’s favorite, but I share with Brendan) and a gift for each of us to open every day that he is gone. And I have Uncles next door, and Grandma and Grandpa just a phone call away. I told Lisa the other day that we (my family) were like a cake, and that each ingredient was important. She didn’t buy my analogy and made me list each ingredient. Chelsea is the baking soda – because she raised us up to a whole new level as a family. Rob is the sugar, the salt and the cinnamon – he grounds us, he makes life sweeter, and more exciting. I am the flour – not very tasty on my own, but necessary to bring the whole cake together. And Brendan is the frosting – you could certainly have cake without the frosting, but everyone knows it’s the very best part. Plus, the frosting goes between all the layers and holds everything together in the most delicious way. Frankly, Lisa still didn’t like my analogy and kept saying that she wanted to be the icing. This is why we have been friends for 15 years.

Transition day two went better than day one. I didn’t get a lot of details other than that, but it seems like we’re headed in a positive direction. Grandma and Grandpa would be here staying with us already, but with Rob gone, and the transition at school, somehow I wanted to leave everything else as ‘normal’ as possible. He needs to go to school so he can practice in his new class room, and when we get home he would never want to go to bed if his grandparents were here. We’ll see… I tend to overthink everything, and may be calling them before the day is over. I did get more evidence yesterday that Brendan is ready to transition. I always gather all his things before I go to see him – because once we see each other, the love fest is on and there is no putting him down. I was in the kitchen collecting his food containers and heard the teachers say, ‘are you going out to see Mommy?’ and then I saw my little man walk right into the kitchen to hug me. I scooped him up and poked my head around to thank the teachers for letting him out of the gate – only they didn’t let him out of the gate. He heard my voice and decided to let himself out of the child-proof gate system. I love that kid. I found out that he has started freeing all the children. He opens the gate, and then lets everyone else go out ahead of him while he hangs back and plays it cool like he has no idea how that gate got opened. So crafty. As a sidenote, the kids look like zombies when they see an open door – they all lumber over, moving slowly but steadily focused on their target.

It feels good to miss my family so much. To know that my normal every day life is extraordinarily wonderful. And I’ll enjoy the next few days where it’s just me and my little man taking on the world.
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I wrote this a few days ago and then considered the scolding I would get from my husband if I announced on the internets that the baby and I were on our own. I would argue with him that only my Mom reads the blog, he would say that’s not the point… long story short, I decided to wait.

Rob’s family happened to be just around the corner at Disneyworld, and they came to visit him at Star Wars Celebration!


I’m glad they got to be together. The event was epic, and Rob got to go to parties and hang out with all kinds of fancy people. As much fun (and hard work) as the conference was, I know that there is one very small person that made him extra anxious to come home.

I learned some things while they were gone:
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  • I learned that it’s good to switch things up every once in a while. As much as I was worried about being on my own this week, and as much as that first day felt way too quiet, Brendan and I fell into a nice rhythm. I still finished everything I really needed to get done, but I let some of the less important things fall away. After Brendan went to bed, I indulged a little bit in silly things I like to do, special things I like to eat.
  • As usual, I built things up in my mind and considered the most negative consequences, but when it comes down to it, I guess I did alright.
  • I learned that it must either be Rob or the pooch who messes up the house, because The Peanut and I kept things pretty dang clean. Okay, so we forgot to put the trash cans out… nobody is perfect.
  • I realized that Brendan is starting to really watch and imitate those around him, and it made me consider with fresh thoughts the Mother I want to be for my baby, and the things I want to try and instill in him. I won’t get it perfect, but I want to be real and honest and the very best version of me that I can put forth.
  • I learned that even when I’m on my own, there is never enough time in the day for me to get to spend with my favorite boy.
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    I also learned that if I had to guess right this second what Brendan was going to do when he grows up, I would have to guess golf. He will carry around those clubs and hit those little plastic balls all day if we let him.
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